Showing posts with label Peribadi. Show all posts
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Taken

“And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put Love and mercy between your (hearts), verily in that are signs for those who reflect.” [Quran 30:21]

That's a word that I never thought would be possible to apply to myself  for the past 2 years.
It took me quite sometime to mend my broken heart and I just don't want the same thing to happen again. For quite some time, I honestly believe that I'd sealed my heart quite properly... until the day that I met her.
It all started on that one day when Allah opened my heart and granted me an opportunity to meet her. Long story short, things escalated quite quickly (in which quick is a very relative concept), they just fall so beautifully at the right time and place. I feel so blessed. However, one thing for sure, being at this stage is never easy for me although the journey to come to this point has been quite uneventful, Alhamdulillah.
I wonder what would be of me now if I were to get that working post in Ireland or if I wrote down Kota Kinabalu on the application form for the ministry of health last time. Whom will we meet instead? Will our path ever cross one another at all?

So many questions yet the only thing I'm hoping for is that she will be the one who will help me to complete that puzzle pieces. Biiznillah.


P/s: 
#1. Please bear with me as I am a complex and difficult to understand kind of person, just like other human. Take whatever clues that you could find to understand myself. I'll do the same for you.
#2. Current state: Vulnerable, fragile but yet joyful?
#3. Opening up and trying to be truthful also could be quite difficult for some people, that would include me as well. Unfortunately, that's the thing that we all have to learn to do so that others could understand us. Unless we don't want them to.
#4. "the most important thing about love is we choose to give it and we choose to receive it" Ryan Reynolds


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Life as a graduan

Assalamualaikum and good morning guys,

How are you guys doing? hopefully everyone is having a great time in this blissful holy month of Ramadhan.

Sahih Bukhari :: Book# 32 :: Hadith# 226
Narrated Abu Huraira: I heard Allah’s Apostle saying regarding Ramadan, “Whoever prayed at night in it (the month of Ramadan) out of sincere Faith and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven.”

First of all, i would like to extend my since apology for being so lazy to update this blog although i think very few people actually read it. 

Since my last post which was months ago, lots of thing happened. 

-I finally managed to pass my final medical examination as an undergraduate.
-Visited one of the best town in Ireland, Killarney for 4 days and 3 nights. Travelled back to Dublin a day before my graduation.
-Hiked up one of the highest peak in Ireland- Carraauntoohil while i was in Killarney.
-Attended the conferring dinner with the majority of my classmates the night before the conferring ceremony.
-Attended the conferring ceremony for RCSI class of 2012 on 6/6/2012.
Me and Mr Broe, President of RCSI.

RCSI Class of 2012

-Returned back to Malaysia; unexpectedly for good on the 10th of June 2012.
Never thought that this is actually real

-Met lots of friends especially in Penang Medical College (PMC)
-Visited a few places in Malaysia including Langkawi Island, Penang, and Perhentian Island with my buddies.
-Attended the PMC clas of 2012 conferring ceremony.
-Dealt with Ministry of Health, Malaysian Medical Council and SPA regarding the job application process.
-Eat lots of foods and gain/losing weights.
-Attended a 2nd wedding ceremony in 2012. This time it is between Ihsan and Farah in Sungai Siput, Perak.
-Visited the vets. because my cat had a touch of fever. Forced 'Tompok' to take the meds.
Tompok who recently had a fever

-Etc.

So, that sort of summarise everything major that had happened. 

I'm kinda thinking about stop blogging actually. No real reason but definitely because I think I will not write that much any more once I start working.
I will have my job interview insyaAllah within a few days in Putrajaya. Hopefully everything will go well. I actually haven't done much study since May, so the momentum just isn't there any more.
The thoughts of going to library has been in my mind since last week but I was yet to enter the Alor Setar public library. I actually went there yesterday only to find out that it was actually close. Probably because yesterday is the first day of Ramadhan. So, I definitely will have to go there today. 

I guess what I'm going to do is just to leave it like this. Whenever I feel like to write, I'll jot down a few stuff once in a while. This will definitely be like the malay saying, "hidup segan mati tak mahu" literally translated into lazy to live the life but do not want to die. Can ah? :P

I'll write more if there are nny major updates or when I am too bored.

For now, enjoy Ramadhan, make full use of it to seek repentance, find the truth in yourself, increase the faith and stay good. It is a month full of rewards, it will be a great loss if you just let it pass by like the other months.

Sahih Bukhari :: Book# 31 :: Hadith# 127
Narrated Abu Huraira: The Prophet said, “Whoever does not give up forged speech and evil actions, Allah is not in need of his leaving his food and drink (i.e. Allah will not accept his fasting.)”


Wassalam.



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Final of Final


Assalamualaikum and hello to everyone.

Woah...just realised that i haven't write anything here for a few months. Longest gap ever. As usual, blame it on the lazyness and the 'busyness'. 

It wasn't too busy that I have no time to write but rather I feel that better for me to keep certain things to myself.
Looking back, my 5 year journey in medical school almost come to an end. The undergraduate study at least. To be exact, the final of final undergraduate exam is only 22 days away! So much things to do and prepare. Wow, time flies sooo fast!



Again, as usual, when I have an exam the next day or around the corner, somehow the urge to waste my time to write something here become more and more apparent. In fact, I actually have mock exam tomorrow at 1 pm. LOL. Just pray that my brain didn't stop working during the exam, insyaAllah everything will be fine.

unrelated picture from google
Last 5 weeks or so, I already had an exam, the OSCE (Objective structured Clinical Examination) or commonly known as short cases. All praise to Allah, I think i did quite okay in the exam. Although some of the cases were quite rare for me, i think I managed to handle them pretty well. Not able to answer one or two question is not the end of the world! The medicine cases were mitral valve replacement, lower lobe lung lobectomy (removal of the lung lobe), parkinson disease and ascites. On the other hand, surgical cases were full of surprise! I got bilateral breast reconstruction case, bilateral knee replacement, renal transplant and stoma.

This OSCE exam made 12.5% of overall final marks and hopefully i was able to grab 3/4 out of that percentage. 



Before the OSCE, we already had continuous assessment (TOSBA and TOSCE) during the compulsory Beaumont Hospital Rotation in which I think I did quite a good job to impress the examiner at that time. Alhamdulillah that Allah made it easy for me. The review at the end of the 4 weeks medicine and surgical rotation, each were very promising. The tutors were very happy with my progression. This continuous assessment actually contributed more marks than the OSCE exam itself. Nothing else that I could say than Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah and Alhamdulillah.

Since my last post in December, lots of thing have been happening. I went to travel during winter (I will elaborate more after the exam), I finished my exam as above, I'd done a few different rotations,  meet lots of patients in hospital, ranted a lot within myself, feel unhappy about how certain things are, get angry to peoples etc. LOL.

I mean, nothing major really other than exam and probably that is why I didn't feel the need to write here. Obviously a lot of major things has been happening around me like my dad just had a cataracts surgery, my little sister got her SPM result etc. but on personal level, nothing much changes.

At many stage, I did feel like writing about issues that have been happening in the world and malaysia but i think there were many more good places (blogs, news portals) that you guys can go and read about that so why bother. In fact, sometimes all it did was more trouble instead.

Politically, I am sure that many are aware that if I were to write anything, it will be against those stupid changes that the government did and their desperados attempt to remain in power, I better go pray instead of writing here coz i am well aware that the reader are mainly among my close circle of friends and family. So no major impact would came out of it since many are actually on the same side as me. Unless Najib or Tun Dr. M read my blog, I may write something useful.

So before I continue this endless rant, I pray that everyone out there is having a blissful life and always guided by Allah SWT. Please keep continue for my success and also to everyone in my class. May we all one day be able to give back to the community to our best.

Lastly, to the dearest friend that keep asking about any special summer event for me, other than graduation, do not expect to get a wedding invitation or anything. Nothing is happening this summer. 
Other than Captain Jack Sparrow, no other sailor has the ability to sail the big ship on his own! :)

Adios and assalamualaikum.

P/s:
1. Selamat hari lahir ke 50 buat ayahanda tercinta. Semoga Allah terus memberikan kekuatan untuk terus beribadah dan beramal.
2. Tahniah buat adinda Nurul Iman diatas keputusan SPM tersebut. SPM is not everything, your actual journey just about to begin :)


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decision time


Long since i last scribble something here. sorry about that and million thanks to those who keep coming. please do read previous entries if nothing new posted. Hopefully something will be some benefit to you insyaAllah.

Quick update about my life.
1. Now i am already a final year med student. Quite unbelievable how fast time flies. Life even harder as you grow older. At this stage i have to wake up as early as 5 am and take a taxi to the city center as i have to be at Connoly  Hospital before 7am. My subuh (morning) prayer nowadays is in the hospital! Surgical rotation is very demanding and this is the life that i hope to live and enjoying it one day (a clear message to my future wife [if any] who will be living with me). I finished 3 different rotations so far which included orthopaedic, anaesthesia, surgical and medical. a few more to come in within the next few months.

The weather
1. Ireland as a whole were not prepared for almost anything (in term of weather). Whenever there is a slightly heavier rain, the city will quickly get flooded. Every year when they have a snow, all the transport system down as if they were never there in the first place. Buses and everything just stop working. Plus, they would always have water shortage immediately after the snow.
2. Last week, there was a sudden flood due to 'heavy' rain (nothing like heavy rain in Malaysia). The shopping centre in Dundrum was flooded because the riverbank or something failed to retain the water. It also cost 2 life. A gardai  (police) officer and a nurse.

Working
1. I am planning to stay here insyaAllah once I'm finish with my degree but am not 100% sure about it yet. Many have been talking about staying here. Not to mention some that hate to stay here and wanted to go out as soon as they can. Some feel that they were treated as 2nd class citizen and some are just because they feel that they could do more money somewhere else. As for me, i have my own reason not to rush to go back to Malaysia but again, it is not something definite. Family would be one of the greatest influence in the final decision.
2. I got approval to apply to Malta Foundation Program. Another destination that i think I will consider going if given chances. Thanks to Wanie for her help with the essay that I completed in half n hour. Believe it or not, I managed to slip through although I missed the deadline by one day.

Friends
1. I am glad that I met more people this year including some of my malaysian friends whom i was never close to them before. At least i know that a few of them are sort of from Kedah. :)
2. One of them once questioned me about hating the rain. She said "macam mana ni, tak lama lagi nak jadi suami orang dah. Hujan sikit pun takut!" I replied just by smiling. She definitely have no clue about me if she really mean it.


Study
1. All i can say is i have a difficulty to focus on books. I bought many new books but haven't manage to finish any of them yet.
2. 10 minutes reading and i already yawning.
3. The progress is superbly slow now.

future
I hope Allah will keep protecting you (whomever you will be)
Something made my heart tickle whenever i see a proposal video anywhere on the net. Maybe the time has come for me as well?

pen torch. LOL. JK
Pen-off

wassalam


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An open letter

*updated*

Hello Marta,

How are you lately? how have you been keeping on with the two children that you are taking care of? I hope that you are in the pink of health. First of all i would like to say that i am very sorry for keeping it long before i write this entry. I know that i promised it to be a few weeks ago but sometimes i just don't have the mood to write. Again, I'm so sorry. 


First of all, I would like to say that I am glad that somehow we were destined to meet again after the short initial introduction on the plane. As u said last time, everything that happen on our journey to Dublin was a coincidence. The plane sit, the last person going into the place etc. It definitely is a coincidence! However, I would say, serendipity. (Do watch that serendipity movie okay!) Haha. I never thought that I would met another medical student in such a situation. Anyhow, thanks for turning up on that day in front of St. Stephen green shopping centre. Honestly, I did not expect to see you again after the day at the airport. It was quite unusual (if could say) for me and you (i assume) to meet someone that we barely know on a 'date'. Oh, and it was at 8am! :-P

Anyhow, i really hope that you enjoy Dublin back then although the weather was not on our side. Being a tour guide for a few hours with you was really a pleasure. Hopefully you will be able to give some guide to your mom when she come to visit you later. Also, please told her that i am very sorry if i had cause her a great worry last time because i fully understand your situation; being a single daughter of the family, away from home etc. I am glad that the day went well and you can continue working as a babysitter with Alan's family. He is such a nice employer. ^__^

Regarding the lunch last time, i think it was one of the best i ever had. Obviously not the food as i just had a slice of pizza and you with your homemade sandwiches. I would definitely try that again. Never thought that eating on the riverside's bench would be wonderful except that we had to witness that couple fighting. That guy was such a loser. I would definitely find another place for us to eat if I was not rushing for the prayer. Hopefully it was a good experience for you as well.



People say that bringing out topics such as religion, politics and history were a bad start for the first date but i think we proved it wrong! Definitely it was fine if your date also has lots of interest in it! Hehe. I hope I was able to clear a few misunderstanding about Islam that you had and not too corny. Obviously Islam was not too foreign for you as you already knew about Ramadhan (fasting month), prayer and so on. Maybe after this you can do more reading about this world fastest growing religion! I would definitely sit and talk about all these again if we ever had a chance to meet again in the future. or, even thru facebook. Haha. Well...I do have plan to go to Spain in the future and i reckon you can handle the distance between Lleida and Cordoba, do you? :-)

Okay, before I bored you more, I hope that you'll enjoy your stay in Ireland and reach the targets that you have in mind. May you continue doing all those charity works as well. I really envy the effort that you have! The world definitely need more future doctors like you. Keep in touch.

Bye...


Yours truly,
Muaz Adam
Malaysia.

Footnotes:
1. Last day of barcelona will be up within a few days weeks.


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Liku kehidupan

Mode idiopathic headache


Takziah buat rakan-rakan dan kenalan di Mesir. Semoga Allah sentiasa memelihara kalian dari segala fitnah dunia dan kerosakan. Gerun pun ada bila membaca khabar-khabar dari sana. Perjuangan perlu diteruskan dan mudah-mudahan diberi ganjaran untuk mereka.
Buat rakyat Mesir sekalian, selamat maju jaya. Mudah-mudahan pemimpin zalim tersebut mendapat balasan sewajarnya.
Khabar terbaru menyatakan dia berlindung di negara haram Israel. Kalau betul, memang sah dia adalah kuda tunggangan selama ini.
Islam pasti akan menang, itu janji Allah. Berjuanglah kalian sehingga titisan darah terakhir. Pastinya balasan terbaik menanti di sana. ALLAHUAKBAR! ALLAHUAKBAR! ALLAHUAKBAR! Walillahilhamd.

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Terus
Pandang depan
lupakan kisah silam
masanya barangkali dah tiba
Jauh ke dalam infiniti demi sebuah masa depan. 
Bertahun pasti untuk menyembuhkan luka sedalam itu
Apapun semoga Allah kurniakan insan terbaik buat kamu
Pada aku cukuplah seseorang yang disenangi kerana agama dan akhlaknya
Bonus mungkin jika kecantikan dan harta turut bersama apatah lagi jika keluarga turut serta
Aku terus berjalan menusuri denai-denai kecil penuh berduri untuk sampai ke penghujung yang kekal 
Ya Rahman Ya Rahim Ya Rabbul 'Alamin
Kurniakanlah aku dengan petunjuk
berikanlah aku sedikit kesempatan
berikanlah aku secebis kelapangan
untuk membuat sebuah keputusan
Semoga bahagia yang didamba itu 
kekal hingga ke hari pembalasan
juga terbaik untuk masa hadapan 

yang kekal dan pasti
serta abadi


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Tadi jumpa patient schizophrenia, sedih dengar cerita hidup dia. Dulu dia kerja computer programmer dan kemudian addicted dengan cannabies. Lepas tu dia hilang segalanya dan diuji pulak dengan penyakit Crohn. Oh, mudah-mudahan Allah jauhkan aku dari dugaan dan cabaran yang tak mampu ditanggung. Kiranya diuji, aku berdoa agar diberi kekuatan oleh Allah SWT untuk menempuh dugaan dan ujian tersebut.


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Al-Quran dan Teknologi

Salam wbt,

Harini nak kongsi sikit satu teknik penting. Dalam pengamatan aku, ramai antara kita yang dah agak lanjut ( 20an ke atas) masih lagi gagap dalam membaca Al-Quran. Aku pun bukanlah lancar sangat, cuma, aku rasa tengin nak berkongsi teknik yang aku gunakan selama ini.

Adapun sesetengah orang sangat mementingkan tentang mengenal hukum-hukum tajwid namun begitu, aku rasa dalam usia yang macam ni, agak sukar untuk sesetengah orang bagi mendalami ilmu-ilmu tersebut. Mungkin sesetengahnya segan (malu/malas). Aku sendiri pun kalau ditanya, tah ingat tah tak ingat hukum-hukum tajwid. Tetapi, hal tersebut tidaklah sepatutnya menjadikan alasan untuk kita terus tidak memperelokkan bacaan kita. Bagi yang masih berkesempatan, adalah sangat baik untuk mendalami ilmu pembacaan Al-Quran. Namun begitu, apabila zaman semakin maju, teknologi juga semakin hebat. Al-Quran sendiri telah mengalami perubahan dari segi pembukuannya untuk memudahkan pembacaan.

Kalau kita perasan, kadang-kadang dalam sesetengah mushaf (or..is it mashaf? :D) di belakangnya ada dilampirkan sekali pelbagai bentuk baris/tanda yang terdapat di dalam Al-Quran. Ada antranya yang apabila kita jumpa baris tersebut, bacaan elok dipanjangkan hingga 3 alif (enam harkat) dan lain-lain. Semua itu boleh dirujuk di bahagian belakang mushaf yang anda miliki. Selain itu, diajarkan juga cara untuk kita membaca bahagian-bahagian tersebut. Kalau tak jumpa di belakang, barangkali di celah-celah Al-Quran anda ada dikepilkan sekali kad kecil seperti kad nama. Fungsinya kadangkala sama saja.

Contoh sebuah Al-Quran yang concise untuk memudahkan bacaan

Untuk lebih memudahkan lagi, ada sesetengah ayat Al-Quran ditandakan dengan warna tertentu dan setiap warna mempunyai cara bacaan tersendiri mengikut hukum-hukum bacaan tertentu. Hal ini juga boleh dirujuk di bahagian lampiran dalam Al-Quran tersebut. Jadi, sebagai contoh, warna merah adalah untuk bacaan satu alif (dua harkat) bagi hukum mad asli, jadi, setiap kali anda menjumpai perkataan yang ditandakan dengan warna merah, anda tahu bahawa bacaan perlu dipanjangkan sehingga dua harkat. Begitulah juga dengan hal-hal yang lainnya. Contoh mudah boleh diperolehi di sini. (cohtoh lain ialah dalam perenggan ini). Bacaan yang memerlukan anda berdengung pula mungkin ditandakan dengan warna biru dan begitulah selanjutnya.

Selain itu, untuk memudahkan pembelajaran Al-Quran juga, terdapat pelbagai software yang anda boleh gunakan apabila tiba-tiba anda tidak pasti cara untuk membaca bahagian tertentu. Quran Explorer sebagai contoh boleh digunakan untuk mendengar bacaan pada ayat tertentu dan pada masa yang sama, anda juga boleh mempelajari cara bacaan di bahagian tersebut. Sama seperti ada melirikkan lagu inggeris supaya tune dengan muziknya, anda juga boleh tunekan bacaan anda agar selari dengan yang dibaca oleh sheikh-sheikh dalam software tersebut. Anda juga boleh berulang kali mendengar cara bacaan tersebut sekiranya sekali dengar masih lagi tidak dapat dibaca dengan betul. Jangan risau, anda takkan bosan kerana bacaan sheik-sheikh tersebut sangat sedap sekali.

Sebagai contoh, satu ayat dimulai dengan huruf alif. Huruf alif di permulaan ayat tersebut pulak tidak berbaris. Jadi dengan tiba-tiba anda sudah tak tahu lagi nak meneruskan bacaan. Kaget, takkan nak hantam bagi bacaan dengan baris diaatas pulak kan? nanti lari maksud, berdosa pulak. Jadi, apa yang anda boleh buat, anda boleh search ayat tersebut di dalam mana-mana software Al-Quran yang anda suka (ie: Quran Explorer) dan kemudiaannya dengar bacaan ayat tersebut. Tada...then you should know how to read it. Lepas tu, ambil pen dan letak la baris supaya next time anda baca semula ayat tersebut, anda kini sudah tahu cara nak baca ayat tersebut. Mudah kan?

Jika setiap hari anda boleh mendengar muzik sambil cuba melirikkan lagu yang sepanjang 3 minit, anda juga sepatutnya boleh membaca satu muka Al-Quran setiap hari sambil mendengar bacaan berlagu dari Sheikh Saad Said Al-Ghamidi. Yang paling utama adalah mashaf itu sendiri. Jadi, next time, bila nak beli Al-Quran, pilihlah yang dapat membantu bacaan anda agar bacaan anda lebih lancar selepas ini. 
Why not give it a try? Menarik kan? 

Ma'assalamah.

Kurangkan sikit entry memasak kali ni. ^____^


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Memories

out there
i know you are somewhere
hiding and acting
just like the others that i met
May one day
we bumped into one another
at a destined moment
and let the LOVE bloom.


Before i even realized it, almost a year flown by. It is hurting, still. Especially when i  read and listen to a particular word. I don't really know what it means before until recently. Intima' it is.
A song keep reminding me of that morning. I was reading that email and at the same time listening to this one beautiful song. Before that, it used to be my favorite song. Now, i always has a mixed feeling whenever i listen to that song. 

For every action, consequences,
For every heart, choices,
For every human a destiny.
All are well planned by HIM.
The End


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Pekedai dan gula-gula

Exam minggu depan, tapi aku rasa terpanggil untuk buat satu entry rinkas setelah terbaca satu entry dari seorang kenalan di UK. Boleh klik sini untuk membaca. Khas untuk adik-adik yang baru di luar negara dan juga yang bakal ke luar negara barangkali. Sebelum baca entry ini, anda wajib baca dahulu link diatas untuk memahami isu dengan lebih lanjut.

Tadi ada karang satu karangan pendek aku tulis, tapi sebab panjang (baca "pedas") dan takut ada yang terluka di sana sini. Aku ambik rumusan sahajalah dari apa yang aku karang tadi. Plus sedikit sebanyak pengalaman aku di bumi asing ini.




1. Bilamana anda sampai di sini, anda akan disogok dengan segala macam kebaikan yang tujuannya untuk mengajak anda menyertai aktiviti-aktiviti persatuan-persatuan di sini. Alhamdulillah, semuanya untuk kebaikan anda. Bagi sesetengah pelajar, ianya membuka mata agar mereka sedar, datangnya ke luar negara tidak hanya sekadar belajar. Ada nilai tambah individu yang cuba dititikberatkan oleh persatuan-persatuan di sini, baik dari segi ilmu mahupun kemahiran. Maka dengan itu, anda berhak memilih untuk menyertai mana-mana yang anda rasakan sesuai dengan diri anda. Malangnya kadang-kadang seolah-olah wujud persaingan yang aku kira kurang sihat. Almaklumlah, penilaian aku ini penilaian orang yang kurang berilmu...orang lain jauh lebih hebat ilmunya...Ada pelajar yang selepas berkenalan dengan persatuan-persatuan ini, menjadi aktif berpersatuan dan ada yang macam aku, memilih untuk kekal pasif. Tahniah buat yang aktif berpersatuan. Aku kagumi kelebihan anda membahagikan masa.


2. Bagaimana seorang pekedai yang baru mula berniaga, semua persatuan akan cuba menaikkan nama masing-masing dengan menganjurkan segala macam aktiviti untuk anda. Namun perlu diingat, ianya tidaklah berkekalan. Sampai suatu ketika, apabila anda sudah tidak menyumbang, maka di masa itulah anda akan terbiar terkapai-kapai. Pada masa itu, mungkin tidak ada lagi sahabat-sahabat yang anda kenal selama ini yang sering mengajak anda ke program-program. Bahkan ada yang apabila anda telefon mereka, sengaja tidak diangkat hinggalah kemudiannya anda tepuk belakang mereka yang sedang memandang telefon mereka tengah bergetar dalam mode silent. agaknya berfikir patut atau tidak aku angkat telefon bila mamat yang tak aktif ni join barangkali Yang ada hanyalah mereka yang setia di sisi anda tanpa mengharapkan sesuatu dari anda. Itulah sahabat sejati. Tapi harus diingat, tak semua sahabat sejati akhlaknya baik. Mudah disimpulkan, pemberi gula-gula akan berhenti memberi apabila gula-gulanya sudah kehabisan. Jadi sebagai seorang yang sudah matang, anda perlu pandai untuk berdikari. Jangan mengharapkan orang untuk semua benda. Kalau nak ke masjid depan rumah pun harapkan orang, maka anda patut tahu di manakah tahap anda dalam ertikata berdikari itu.


3. Apabila dihantar untuk belajar di luar negara, anda perlu ingat bahawa anda datang bukan untuk dicucuk hidung dan ditunjukkan itu dan ini, mesti buat itu dan ini. anda sepatutnya sudah punya fikiran yang cukup matang untuk membezakan baik buruk sesuatu perkara. Kalaupun anda tidak menyertai mana-mana persatuan berunsurkan kerohanian, anda sepatutnya boleh membuat penilaian berdasarkan asas-asas agama yang anda pelajari. Kalau anda jenis yang perlu diketuk setiap masa untuk berbuat sesuatu kebaikan ataupun barangkali ibadah-ibadah asas, maka tempat anda adalah dalam persatuan berbentuk kerohanian ini. Jika tidak, anda akan hanyut dibuai kebejatan nilai-nilai kebaratan ini. Pendek kata, jika anda suka dimanja-manjakan, maka tempat anda adalah bersama persatuan-persatuan ini.

Oh..panjang la pulak. cukuplah sekadar itu sahaja. Nanti kita sambung pulak. Kalau yang senang-senang, intai-intai situasi yang berlaku di Mesir. Sedih sungguh bila ada yang sanggup berhasad dengki semata-mata akibat rasa tidak senang dengan persatuan yang lain. Wallahualam.

P/S: Maaf buat persatuan-persatuan pelajar di Ireland ni kalau ada yang terasa hati. Aku menulis se"neutral" yang mungkin untuk panduan adik-adik yang sudah hampir 3 bulan di bumi asing ini. Salah aku tidak menulis lebih awal ketika aku masih betul-betul neutral. *sigh*
Selamat tahun baru jugak... :)




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This is it.

Maafkan aku atas segala kesalahan dari diri yang hina ini,
Terlalu tinggi yang diharapkan dari seorang budak kampung yang baru mengenal dunia,
Maaf, tak mungkin dapat aku tunaikan semua itu dalam masa terdekat.
Semoga kamu kelak beroleh apa yang dicari selama ini.
Terima kasih atas segalanya.
Wassalam.

P/s: 
1. Aku berundur buat kali pertama dalam sejarah.
2. Sekeping hati yang ikhlas tidak akan pernah cukup untuk sesetengah individu.
3. Bagi yang mencari harta kekayaan serta pangkat, jangan cuba lagi mendekati diri ini.






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dead end

To whom it may concern,

Dear friend,


How are you doing at this moment? i hope you are in the best of health.
I'm writing this to express my greatest regret for not being able to continue walking with you for the time being. It seems impossible now for me to keep the pace and meet you at the crossroad as promised.  There is a big and well built wall halting my journey at the moment.  

Don't worry, I'll keep looking for other way to break through this big wall although all the odds seems to be against me at the moment. However, bear in mind sometimes it can be too long before I can finally walk the path again, or maybe if I were too tired of trying, I may take another route to continue the journey and the later means we may probably never meet at that crossroad as promised. 
Anyhow do not wait for me and keep on walking as I'm sure u'll reach the destination that we once thought we will arrive together. Someone else i'm sure is also walking towards the same direction and both of u might meet one another at any point along the journey. 
I'm deeply sorry as i wasn't able to continue the journey with you and not able to keep my word. Never my intention to hurt you, what else to ruin your peaceful life. I believe i was there for a reason but somehow i only find a dead end for the time being. We shall meet again if i'm able to keep the pace and able to break the wall and also the most important if Allah already planned our meeting there.
Until then, i pray you a safe journey ahead and again, forgive me for everything.

Best Wishes,
Muaz Adam Mohd Nabil.


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The Hundredth Post

Thanks to Allah SWT with all HIS mercy and blessing, i am able to write another entry for this blog.

First of all i would like to apologize coz i was not able to update this blog as it used to be. i don't want to give any excuse but most likely is due to this 100th entry which i think is rather significant for me.

when looking back at my first entry, (on Friendster) the purpose of me joining this blogger community in the first place was to practice my writing coz as many realize, i need a lot of improvement. Since secondary school, things has been changing slowly and i do remind myself that it is not as easy as ABC. This maybe due to me myself who prefer watching that reading. So, hoping that the blog can add to the improvement, i decided to blog.I used to have a blog in Friendster but i decided to have a better platform and moved to here instead.

Honestly i don't care if this blog is a bit or maybe very boring to certain people as they need to read a very long entry which doesn't really say about anything useful because it was just me writing stuff that i feel like writing and sharing at that time. Somehow along the way, the contents of this blog change to be personal stuffs, my view on certain issues, recipe and also thing which was posted without really thinking a lot. It make me smile when i go through every entry that i posted since most of them are written base on my mood at that moment especially the one that i tried to play with words and create my very own poem. :p only a few entry were posted to promote events etc.


now, it is already at it's 100th post. at this moment, my mood is not that good considering the amount of study that i need to do during this holiday. T_T However I will never going to give up because after all, it is my decision. no matter how big is the wall in front of me, i will do my best to climb and get the best of it. In addition, after I listened to some inspirational talk by my very own friend, Mr. Aimie during a camp at SMK Derma last few days, I feel as if i got a new energy to start fresh. YES human do need to rely only to ALLAH at any condition including when craving for motivation, but sometimes, reminder from people who is close to u make u realize that it has been a while since u last been given a motivation and it does helps. Believe me!

Anyway, now i need to start studying again and hope that i can perform better when the time comes. As we only plan and work our plan out, everything else is from HIM. So let us all pray that we always get a blessing from HIM in every action of ours. May we not led astray and get the success in this world and the in the hereafter.

Wassalam.


p/s: i'll write more on the camp at SMK Derma later. my 3rd time becoming a facilitator. Memory last forever and u can never buy them with money.


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Pondok Rehat

Peperiksaan untuk intermediate cycle 1 (semester 4) kurang dari sebulan.
Aku tinggalkan sementara dunia blog.
Doakan kami semua lulus cemerlang dan dapat beraya dia tanah air. Mudah-mudahan.

Bagi yang baru melayari blog ini, silalah lawat entry sebelum-sebelum ini ya. Semoga ada sedikit pengajaran yang mampu dikutip.
Semoga ditemukan lagi.

Wassalam



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Engraved

Order status:

IPOD SHUFFLE 4GB BLACK PRSNL-ZOO
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It'll be here by next week, InsyaAllah.
Sebuah hadiah buat hati yang sedang lara.

*EDITED*
-Alhamdullillah...the item safely arrived today (26/03/09). Thanks to my neighbor for accepting the item on my behalf. Thanks also to 'besaq' yang tolong amik td. XD yezza....-

P/s: Buat sahabat misteri di UPM sana, semoga tenang hati dengan keputusan yang bakal diambil. Semoga DIA menunjukkan jalan untuk kamu dan memudahkan segala urusan. Doaku sebuah ketenangan buat hati kamu yang berbelah bahagi. wassalam.


Fighting is prescribed for you and ye dislike it. But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth and ye know not. (2:216)


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$tR3$$

How to know that you actually facing one?
Does loss of concentration count?
What about disease that surfaced out of blue?

too many things happen lately,
too much stuff to deal with,
too many notes to be studied,

I constantly pray that i get back all the peacefulness,
if not better, at least the normal kind,
the kind that i used to have,


O Allah, grant me strength,
and energy that i need to face to the situation,
Thee alone I worship; Thee alone i ask for help.


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Harga Sebuah Persahabatan




Tajuk serius kali ni sebab memang akan bercakap tentang perkara yang serius. Persahabatan. Menurut tafsiran aku ialah suatu bentuk hubungan yang lahir antara dua individu hasil perkenalan untuk suatu jangka masa tertentu. Hubungan yang lahir tu tidaklah melebihi dari apa yang umum selalu sebutkan sebagai kawan.

Entry kali ini aku tujukan khas buat seorang kawan lama. Hampir dua tahun dah tak jumpa sebenarnya. Kali terakhir mungkin masa hari-hari terakhir di KMB. Ya, dia rakan sekelasku. Pernah kami sama-sama bertungkus lumus, berusaha untuk menghabiskan program IB. Alhamdulillah, rezeki kami di luar negara cuma belum sempat lagi berjumpa setelah masing-masing ke uni yang berlainan. Dia antara individu yang sangat aku hormati di kalangan rakan-rakanku. Tiada apa lebihnya barangkali rakan aku yang sorang ni melainkan peribadinya aku kira. Dia tidak seperti kebanyakan mereka yang aku kenal. Namun setelah hampir dua tahun dalam kelas yang sama, aku kenal sikit-sikit tentang kawan aku yang sorang ni. Mungkin jugak apa yang aku nampak hanyalah cebisan dari diri sebenar kawan aku ni, tapi kalau cebisan cebisan inilah yang menyembunyikan kumpulan emas di bawahnya, aku yakin tak rugi bersahabat dan berkawan dengan orang yang macam ni.

Sesuatu sebenarnya telah merangsang aku untuk menulis kali ni. Bukanlah untuk memuji dan menyajung seorang kawan. Tapi sebenarnya kerana terkejut setelah aku baca reply YM kawan aku yang sorang ni. Betapa walaupun sudah lama tak jumpa, tapi aku dapat kesan keikhlasan kawan lama aku ni dalam bersahabat. Bagaimana dia tidak langsung teragak-agak untuk menyatakan TIDAK kepada seorang kawan lain yang cuba untuk mengorek rahsia peribadi seseorang. Terserlah di situ suatu ciri individu muslim. Pastinya aku barangkali pun sukar untuk jadi macam tu. Kalau bab bergosip ni, susah la sikit kan. Cuma baiknya, kita jangan mula. Peringatan untuk diri sendiri dan semua.

Akhir kata, lucunya sebuah email menjadi spam, keperibadian seorang individu dan jugak sebuah persahabatan, pastinya akan aku kenang sampai bila-bila.

wassalam.

Yang Ikhlas,
Muaz Adam Mohd Nabil


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